If you can LAUGH at it,

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Monday, July 30, 2012

Calm - 7.30.12

Tonight there is not much that is calm in my life.

Work is crazy trying to get everything ready for next month plus taxes are due tomorrow. And the bosses are gone still.

My head is going a million miles a minute OVER ANALYZING a dumb mistake I made this week that has left me feeling about 2 inches tall.

My heart is a little bit sad because there are so many people hurting right now. And also because I might just want to be in a different phase in my life.

But among the craziness of it all I know that the calm will come. Eventually. I often use the expression "it's fine" but there are times like today when it isn't fine no matter how you spin it, it's just not fine, but it is going to be better:. This is just one of those storms, but parts of it will pass, others will never go away. It's just one of those times where God won't calm the storm but He will calm the child and give her strength to make it through. Better. Changed. Calmed.

Tuesday, July 10, 2012

Good day 7.9.12

Well, my everyday posts did so well didn't they! Or not! But it's a new day right! So here is the picture of the day, not because it is what I am supposed to be capturing (according to my Pintrest schedule) but because today was one of those good days that just happened that I need to remember.

The goodness might have happened when I actually made it to work on time this morning...it was a LONG/SHORT weekend and usually traveling kicks my trash but I beat it's fanny today ;)

There was a surprising panic attack text that made me a little sad, a little worried but in the end reminded me of two things. (1) sometimes (every time) there is a much better composer in my symphony called life. He can see the grand crescendo that my life is building up to when I think He is trying to just get me to stop playing. (2) I am really grateful for that, and sometimes you have to pray really hard for things. I had one of those lightbulb moments when I was talking to a good buddy about how sometime life forces us to do things we know we should but maybe aren't brave enough to do, and then a little later down the road you can see where you are in a much better place in life. It was a good moment.

Another good moment was when the bosses called me in for a meeting. (confession time, the last month I have been involved in kind of a huge deal project that has consumed most of my awake hours and other aspects of my work and life have suffered a little, so when they said they needed to talk to me my first thought was a little freak out that I had dropped the ball on something big) Can I just say once again, I work for some pretty good people. Yes, sometimes I am not sure what the heck they are thinking, but at the end of the day, it's one of those reassuring factors in my life. I am in the position I am supposed to be in, learning the skills I need to be right now for a specific purpose and even working for the people I work for and with.

Another good moment, when one of my co workers asked me what time I was leaving tonight and I spouted off a pretty unrealistic time but then she proceeded to get the exit crew in place. Thanks Jess, Mig & Ben for getting me out the door when I said I would. It was fun to actually come home from work with time to actually do something!

And lastly...because I have great friends who were once again ready to put me in the elevator and wheel me out to my car if necessary, I decided to it the rest of my work on hold and enjoy some time with a few of my favorite people in life before they flew back to Michigan tonight. And yes, my guts are regretting the choice of activity but to see the smiles on their faces and spend time with them I would eat 100 snow cones (and let's be honest, I could do it too...well until I threw them all up but still...I love snow cones)

So thank you....thank you for the good day, thank you Lisa & Hondo for the light bulb moment, thank you Dave & Andy for not firing me the 7000 times I have given you the opportunity, thank you Derek for allowing the most flexibility in a schedule a person could have ever thought possible, thank you Tayler, Jess, Katelyn, Mig and Ben for your listening ear and sometimes forceful caring. Thank you Cris, Mirra, Mason, Merrick, and Aunt Sandy for some quite time without work and the yummy snow cone.

I am one pretty stinkin lucky girl! (pretty used here only for emphasis of how lucky I am, not to be confused with my physical characteristics :))

Sunday, July 1, 2012

Self portrait - July 1

So I am starting this again this month with a commitment to myself to do better. Last month was crazy ridiculous and sadly most of it passed with me working, but today is a brand new day and the beginning of a brand new month and who doesn't love that!

So here it is, my self portrait picture. One of the joys of my life is being able to be Aunt Bec. I love spending time with my nieces and nephews. It makes me sad that I don't get to see them more often, and I wish I was better at keeping in contact with them. Thankfully for me little Miss Mo's parents trust me to baby sit her so I get to see her more often. We took this one day this week when we got to have a girls night in. Love the expression on her face!